You have Moon in Pisces square Saturn like me. Your Moon square Saturn-Ascendant conjunction. Your Saturn is stationary too,and so it's a strong Saturn energy. The stationary Saturn in aspect is stronger than a regular Saturn in aspect.It could indicate a tendency to be depressed
It could stem from feeling of insecurity as well as being restricted,limited in some way
I don't think it's necessarily about self pity nor wanting to be miserable.
Depression can be a very serious problem.
It can be looked down upon as a character weakness even though it can be legitimate medical problem.
Depression can even be caused by stress
If a person is overloaded with stress, the cortisol levels greatly increase which leads to depletion of serotonin.
That's why it seems like many highly sensitive people have been taking SSRI's for treating depression. Those same SSRI's are even used to treat social anxiety disorder which is a pathological type of shyness. Many highly sensitive people can come across as being shy. That goes especially if they are in surroundings that they are not familiar with or in negative surroundings.
Omega 3 fatty acid deficiencies can lead to depression too. Symptoms of Omega 3 fatty acid deficiencies are hypersensitivity.
If you're hypersensitive, you're more likely to be easily overwhelmed by the environment which can lead to burning the Omega 3 fatty acids more than the average person which can lead to the need to replenish. This could also be the case for people that are ultrasensitive in general. In society, ultrasensitive are viewed as being too sensitive. Therefore, they are viewed as needing medication by people who look down on ultrasensitivity.
People with neurological differences are more susceptible to depression and anxiety disorders than people with so-called normal neurological systems.
Anxiety and depression tend to be co-morbid. A lot of people with anxiety tend to be depressed. A lot of people with depression tend to be anxious. SSRI's are used to treat both depression and anxiety.
It could be a combination of insecurity and ultrasenstivity to the environment. Omega 3 fatty acid deficiencies are strongly connected to neurological differences too.
A good source of Omega 3's are fish,algae,and flaxseed.
Vitamin B complex and Zinc is important in helping people deal with stress as well as the immune system. If you're stressed, your immunity can get compromised.
I know all this from personal experience.
I have had suicidal thoughts,feelings before. I have never attempted suicide. My mother has had numerous suicide attempts. My maternal grandfather committed suicide. One of my maternal aunts has been diagnosed as having a depressive disorder after being involuntarily hospitalized,and she's on medication for depression. Therefore, depression runs strong in my family. They are also ultrasensitive people with neurological differences too.
Anxiety and Depression can be two sides of the same coin. Both can be connected to a ultrasensitive nervous system. A lot of people don't understand.
I also want to inform that anxiety and depression can be connected to vestibular disorder aka inner ear disorder. Inner ear is important for equilibrium. That effects the brain functioning too.
Hormonal imbalances can also be a source of depression. A matter of fact, testosterone was used as an antidepressant to treat males. Males with lower levels of testosterone can be susceptible to depression.
Allergies can also lead to depression. Antihistamines used to be some of the first antidepressants.
Depression and its causes are not cut and dry. They are complex.
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No..I am not a Virgo.
Developmental Neurodiversity Association facebook group. http://www.facebook.com/#!/group.php?gid=131944976821905&ref=ts